Bollywood A-lister, Deepika Padukone has time and again opened up about her journey with depression and mental health. The actress shared that she would feel anxious when she would least expect it. The Bollywood actress has shared her journey with depression as she encourages others to come forward with their stories. She also managed to form an organisation which would help people struggling from mental health. Deepika Padukone shared how, during the high time of her career, she would often have to find a quiet corner to break down and cry.
Speaking to The New York Times about the time how she first broke down during shooting of a film, Deepika shared, “Once, I was on the set of a film I was working on. We were shooting a song sequence, and the cast’s energy was high. Everyone was happy and in a celebratory mood. I was surrounded by so many people, yet I felt lost and alone. I ran back to my trailer, locked myself in the bathroom and started crying.”
Deepika shared how she started experiencing symptoms in 2014. “It was mid-February, and I had fainted after a long day of work. The next morning, I woke up with an empty feeling in my stomach and the urge to cry,” Deepika added. “On paper, that should have been a great period in my life — I had just starred in four of my most memorable movies, my family was extremely supportive and I was dating the man who would later become my husband. I had no reason to feel the way I did. But I did.”
But she revealed she was exhausted and sad all the time. “If someone played a happy song to cheer me up, it only made me feel worse. Waking up every day felt like a huge endeavour. All I wanted to do was sleep. When I was asleep, I didn’t have to deal with reality. Then my parents came to visit me in Mumbai. For the duration of their stay, I put on a brave face. But as they packed their bags before heading to the airport, I broke down in tears. My mother looked at me and asked, “What’s wrong?” But I had no answer. She asked me if I was having issues at work. She asked if my partner and I were doing O.K. All I could do was shake my head. After taking a moment to herself, she said, “Deepika, I think you need professional help.”’
“The psychiatrist’s diagnosis was clinical depression,” she said. “I had been so desperate that as soon as the doctor said, “This is what you have,” I felt immediate relief. Finally, somebody understood what I was going through. Not knowing what I was experiencing had been the biggest struggle. The moment I had the diagnosis, my recovery began.”
Deepika went on to add that one of the kindest things she did for herself was to accept her condition. “I didn’t fight it. The doctor prescribed me medication and recommended some lifestyle changes, prioritizing sleep, healthy eating, exercise and mindfulness. The process made me a lot more aware of who I am.”
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